Four years ago I was struck down with bizarre symptoms that baffled doctors and took me down a path of never ending specialists, incidental findings, diagnoses of other conditions including an autoimmune disease, blood clots, and a constant state of stress and anxiety that left me feeling sick to my stomach. All the time hiding this to most people and pretending to the world that all was well just for some normalcy and to keep my shit together. I continued to serve my clients when I could, but everything else in my world came to a halt.
On one occasion I needed to travel to Adelaide to see a Neurosurgeon and on the way I took this photo, which made me feel calm and centred. It was a message that no matter what turmoil is going on in my world there are always steady constants… always things that look solid and feel solid in my being.
Like the vastness of the sky and that above those clouds are the stars, the planets, the Universe. Solid. Constant.
Like the trees, who rather than break in the wind, they bend, they adapt, they let their roots go deep into Mother Earth. Strong. Constant.
Like the grass and the weeds, that even in summer when it dies it springs back with rain. Tenacious. Constant.
Like the stone that is shaped, moulded and weathers the elements. Strong. Constant.
It reminded me back then that on the other side of stress, anxiety and sickness is calm, peace and wellness.
But here’s the thing. Both of those are constants.
It was up to me to decide what constant I wanted to focus on and where to put my energy. Which constant I wanted to allow to control me, or which constant I wanted to allow to free me.
For a while, I let the constant of stress, anxiety and sickness rule. Then I chose the calm, peace and wellness constant. I refused to let a diagnosis define me, rule me, or dictate to me. I relinquished the excuses. I made the decision that it was up to me to go through it, go around it, get past it.
The journey wasn’t easy, but it was worth it. And it isn’t over… I don’t think it ever will be. Not because I’m not well. Because I am! 😊 But because life throws things at you (hello COVID for one!), and without daily practice to live a calm and peaceful life as much as you can, before you know it those fireballs will eat away at your immune system, your wellbeing, your happiness, and your state of mind. It’s something you’ve got to work on and protect.
I love and welcome my daily practice and routines or rituals so that I can continue to be well, keep my stress levels down, be in harmony as much as I can with nature, those I love and all that is around me, and to live congruent with my values and life mission.
I have this moment in time… this scene captured in this photo above to thank, and the Universe and my higher wisdom who, at the time four years ago, showed me examples of the constants and what that means to my life. And when I need a reminder of a constant – that no matter how rocky anything is – there is always a solid and calming constant. All I need to do is look to nature for the answers. This is my source, my inspiration.
What solid constants keep you sane and in your wellness zone?